Thursday, September 2, 2010
No Work and No Pay makes me a dull boy
I've been on an involuntary long vacation AKA unemployed now for several months now and I have experienced the many emotions involved. Initially I felt relief. " God I needed a break anyway and I was burned out." Next came anxiety as I now had no schedule. Awaiting the DNA results on Maury does not count. The anxiety turned to depression as I now pondered my future and my life decisions. Then I went on several interviews. I felt hope.
There was one position in Long Beach that I thought I would get. The lady that inteviewed me was a Laker fan as I was. I got a letter saying "We're sorry...."
I felt depression again. The depression and the sense of hopelessness engulfed me on some days that I couldn't sleep or see the sun outside my room. But I kept on sending resumes. I got more interviews but some of the companies that wanted to "hire" me showed up as "SCAM" when I did a Google search.
The stress of being jobless affected me mentally and physically. I'm already crazy but the toll that it took on my body was bad. I believe that stress was responsible for some of the numbing sensation on my body.
I have sinced changed my diet, implemented an exercise routine, and I refuse to worry about that which is outside my control. I have been on two consecutive interviews and this has given me hope that someone,somewhere, will see that I'm OK.
I was rather amused by the comments of Newt Gingrich who said, "if you're unemployed and you turn down work, you're lazy." Or even better is the psychoanalysis of Ben Stein who said of the unemployed, " people who have been laid off and cannot find work are generally people with poor work habits and poor personalities."
The good news is that I have some money to keep me afloat for a little while and I'm more positive about what the future holds. I had two interviews. One with a Russian lady that kinda made me nervous and the other was with a very nice lady that seemed very sincere. I'm optimistic now (It's better for my health) All I can do is try right? I'll still keep seing humor amid the darkness and tragedy. I choose to laugh rather than cry.